Tuesday, 29 July 2008

Obsession

I have some good news and bad news to share.

The good news is that I lost 2kg(from all the vomiting and cramping and diarrhea), due to over-eating (thanks to Shoduko).

And the bad news is that,

I AM STILL OVERWEIGHT!!!

It's true!! I am super obsessed with the scale now because I realised that I gained pounds!!! And it's freaking scary ok. When I had my lunch earlier, I wanted to like puke out during the meal. Ya I know it's some physcological thingy wreaking havoc in me... but it's a sure sign showing that I have been having an unhealthy diet for the past 2 mths!!! Right, now it's killing me.

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So I was reading Digital Life and came across this article on this website :

http://www.somethingstore.com/ (Click Here)

Their slogan : We love surprising you, wherever you are.

Buy a mystery something. For just $13.60, SomethingStore sells the element of surprise in the form of a mystery gift in a brown pack with a question mark on it.
-from the DL article.

For a cheapthrill, this might just be a little something to excite the mundane life of yours. Why not right? It'll be a perfect Christmas exchange gift. Imagine getting something at ard $13... and the item ranges from an antique...to a bathrobe...to an ipod.

In the "Something NOT" tab on the webby, they listed items that they will not send. List includes : Body parts Organs or other body parts; body fluids; stem cells; embryos.

They are on Facebook by the way. Should be fun to see what the consumers got. hah.

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Anyway,I am so not looking forward to my 12hr shift tomorrow. This is gonna sound totally cliche, but I feel sick. I have a terminal illness called - The Office Virus.

Right.

Not funny at all.

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Weather's so hot and humid now I don't feel like stepping out of the house.

An indulgence like a Java Chip without whip from Starbucks is tempting me to get my ass out of the chair.

Will see how.

Angel : DIET DIET DIET. JAVA CHIP IS FATTENING. FAT FAT FAT.
Devil : Ohhhh. C'mon... it's just a drink. How about just a teeny weeny Small cup~

ARGH.

Monday, 28 July 2008

Finally a weekend off.

It was Shifu's belated 24th birthday dinner at Shokudo. Yup, the "Marche-Jappy style" food paradise at Raffles City.

We had TONS of food...

Mushroom cheese omelette, pan-fried udon, thin-crusted mushroom pizza, bamboo chicken rice, garlic rice, curry udon, special rosti, teppanyaki vegetables...





Erm, and for desserts, we had banana crepe with sweet potato ice-cream and home-made japanese cheesecake!

How gluttony.

p/s : Having a very bad tummy ache now...

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Took a long bus ride to town from Changi T3 with lei lei earlier... and as usual, we would always go back to the same topic. It's funny how me and her are somehow like in the same situation and very much in a "I don't know" state when it comes to the matters of the heart.

It ain't unexplainable - us and the past. It's just not happening the way we thought it would be. And like the song Better In Time by Leona Lewis, "it's gonna hurt when it heals too".

It's gonna be a year since that tormenting week of hell which till this day I still remember vividly. But what I really cannot forget are the closest friends around me who stood by me throughout those crazy rough weeks...Charlene cried buckets with me, Shifu who accompanied me till 5am at ECP(freezing at the beach coz it was damn bloody cold), Lei lei who promptly lended a listening ear and last but not least, Theowee who always made me feel better with her comforting words.

Without them, I wouldn't have survived that heart-breaking ordeal. And it's also because of them, who made me realize that true friends does exist.

I can never thank you guys enough. =)

I chose not to blog about this purposely on that upcoming fateful date...thus here am I, pouring out my most inner feelings.

I hope that a year from today, I won't be reminded of tearful august anymore.

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你已经远远离开我也会慢慢走开
为什么我连分开都迁就着你
我真的没有天份安静的没这么快
我会学着放弃你是因为...

The heart doesn't beat like before
And thoughts of missing you no more
It ain't hurting like it used to be
It just hated the cruel you in me

"Who are you?" the heart asked.
A faded face of my past.
"Go away..." my heart pleads.
For you, it no longer bleeds.

-yours truly.









Sunday, 20 July 2008

Hello Sunday.

First thing first, I LOVE PUSHING DAISIES!!

(am watching now on Channel 5)

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Beacause of work, I missed the inaugural Shape Run 2008.

p/s: Sorry Lei and Phoebe!

My life's quite messed up now. It seems like I have countless of unacheived goals and I'm only left with 5 more months before the year turns 2009. There's so much I want on track in my life before the age of 24.

And 'coz of my over ambitious self and incompetence character, I am losing self-confidence. Self help books doesn't work as much and I'm someone who don't really open up much. Well, at least, I have my blog to rant to. (:

So my mum was bringing up the BF issue again. Ever since the last guy, my mum has been constantly at my back, asking when will I get a BF again. I told her a little about Mr ABC and the movie date I turned him down last Sunday.

I'm not afraid of dates... I'm not afraid of the opposite sex... I'm not afraid to like someone...

I'm just not ready to unlock my fragile heart.

So until I find the right key, I shall remain status quo - Single and Crazy. hah.

I have a friendship to mend and friends I've yet to meet up yet (sorry theowee!)

Yup. That sums up my weekend of random blah blahs.

Ciao!

Wednesday, 16 July 2008

Shh~Secret no.1

I would do anything on earth to smile like never before.

Was blog surfing some 15mins ago and every blog seems oh-so-cheery and full of love.

I have so many unpleasant thoughts bogging my mind and I seriously wonder why do we live to deem ourselves unhappy.

Or maybe,

I'm the only one of my kind.

The "act happy kind".

Yes, I'm not happy and I want to cry my heart out.


Tuesday, 15 July 2008

My boring life so far...

(Part 1) * Image slight heavy

I, Diana Hoe, declare myself : WORKAHOLIC-IN-THE-MAKING. *Note the evening sky when the picture is taken. I never once stepped out of the office just in time for sunset.



I love this picture. An old trishaw in the midst of CBD.



Every single day on the way back home, I would pass by this huge "carpark alert sign" which I think it's the best invention ever in busy busy CBD.

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Many many many Sundays back...

An impromptu date with Mr American-Born-Chinese.



We had hagan daaz and it wasn't yummy at all. See that tissue paper on his left hand, he folded that into a pretty rose and gave it to me but I don't remember where I kept it.



Mr ABC.

p/s: Excuse me Theowee, you said he's cute. But how come I don't reckon so! And the weird thing is, even my two *ahem*gay*ahem* sisters think he's cute!!! How can!



He took out his handphone and said," This song suits the mood right now." ( No~ I won't hesitate no more... no more~ this cannot wait.. I'm yours~ )

To set the record straight, I did not adore Jason Mraz's - I'm Yours because Mr ABC coincidentally guessed my current favourite song.



Poser. 'nuff said.

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Just a simple dinner and movie with the secondary school peeps.

A week before the gathering, Meiyi texted me : " Diana..we are planning for a simple dinner/gathering.. you free?"

I agreed of course.

Come that day, ALL OF THEM TURNED UP IN THEIR BEST DRESS CAN!! Sheena with her sexy faux-lashes...petite Yuanfen in her pretty white dress...Meiyi's forever stunning with her killer smile and perfect make-up.

Me? OT-ed before I caught up with them at Clarke Quay for the "simple dinner". That explains my super chui, make-up less look.

So pekcek CAN!!! It's like I spoiled the whole picture. Grrrrrrr.



See I told you, I am always surrounded with gorgeous friends.



The boys.



CHUI-iest me + my gorgeous friends.

Anyway, dinner at Riverside Indonesian Restaurant was yummy. We ended the night with Hancock and a good car-wash (because we parked at the after 10pm "free carpark" across Cineleisure). I cannot remember the last time I went for a drive to the carwash. Damn fun to see those bubbles. It's like snow. =)



Bubbles bubbles.



More bubbles.



Wash wash + Scrub Scrub + Dry dry = $6



Jackson's Yellow Jazz right in front of us.

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Something to learn about me today... I have a drawer full of Arts & Crafts. From raw paper to ribbons to buttons to paper cutter to beads to shells to old cloths etc.

It's been awhile since I got my hands down to some creative stuffs. The last time I specially hand-made a card was during March this year...which never got through the postman after much consideration.

Today, I brought out my lovely "tools" again. But it just doesn't feel the same anymore. That zest of passion for Arts & Crafts was missing something.



Yup. I got stuck after 2 hours of merely drawing and placing the heart.



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My daily reminder :




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Bee-tee-double-you,

I'm exceptionally moody today... it's definitely the fucking hormones.













National Day is coming... I hate August.

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Maybe this decision was a mistake.
You probably don't care what I have to say.
But it's been heavy on my mind for months now.
Guess I'm trying to clear some mental space.
I would love to talk to you in person.
But I understand why that can't be.
I'll leave you alone for good I promise.
If you answer this one question for me.

I just wonder,
Do you ever,
Think of me,
Anymore, do you?

-Neyo's Do You

Friday, 11 July 2008

WATCH OUT FOR THIS SPACE... (:

Saturday, 5 July 2008

On a Gloomy Saturday...

Am at work.

Work is fun on a Saturday when you have a mentor(who happens to be your direct supervisor) by your side telling you what to say and what to type.

Yum Cha-ed an hour ago.

Dinner with the sec sch fun peeps later (:

I'll post pictures soon.

Wednesday, 2 July 2008

Duh

Work's been pretty much crazy yet again.

Had a meeting till 10pm earlier and I was feeling really cheesed off during the whole "discussion".

I am a person with lots of opinion and feed backs and despite me being a newbie, I'd still love to voice out my opinions on certain issues related to work.


And for the first time, I got dead intimidated by a senior. She speaks her mind, shoots off her unhappiness and is damn bloody domineering. Yup, even the boss has to keep calm when "handling" that senior.

I lost. I never knew that there are actually people like that who exist. Yes I agree that she's unbeatable when it comes to work wise; but her EQ with colleagues? Bull. I'd dare say that she's only nice to those whom she personally likes and to her, us newbies are like trash.

I don't hate her a person or as a human being. In fact, I respect her seriousness towards work and the drive to excel when during operation time. But I despise her nitty-gritty attitude towards the people around her. I despise her use of strong words without thinking how the other party feels. I despise that she always think that she is right.

Needless to say, I got fired back.

Work fucking sucks. I wanna go back to school.