On office emails Part II...
Being Twenty-Something- and we call it "Quarter-life Crisis"
* It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realising that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like.
* You start feeling insecure and wonder where will you be in a year or two, and get scared because you barely know where you are now.
* You start realising that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones.
* What you don't recognise is that they are realising that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.
* You look at your job, and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.
* Your opinions have gotten stronger.
* You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because, suddenly you realise that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't.
* One minute, you are insecure and the next moment, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused.
* Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realise that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.
* You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you.
* You lie in bed and wonder why can't you meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love the someone but love another someone else too. You cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person.
* One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap.
* Getting wasted and acting like an idiot don't seem as fun.
* You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and over again, talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.
* You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender.
* What you may not realise is that everyone reading this relates to it.
* We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.
-courtesy of darling Sharz (:
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I've mentioned in my previous posts before-I'm still searching for myself in this "not here not there", of what I call - "perplex age of 23". On one hand, gone were the days of being the angst-y teenager craving for attention; and the other, struggling to grow up/mature and blend in this harsh society.
Honestly, I don't like the dilemma in my life now.
...Who am I ?... Who is the real me?
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Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now
In a world where I have to
Hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What’s inside my heart
And be loved for who I am
-Reflection by Coco Lee
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