mooncake festival.

Our mini mooncake celebration





It's close to 6am now.*yawns* I FINALLY figured out how to compile it into a simple video. My virgin attempt.

YAY.

I had a fruitful and yummylicious 29/09. AMAZING in fact. But now, I wanna go sleep...shaggggeddd.

Good morning! *muacks*

TGIF again.

Thank God It's Friday.


Woot! Friday. *happy* It's so hard to survive 5 full days at boring work. Besides randomly surfing eBay, blogging, my only form of entertainment would be Perfect10(currently crazy over all the duets by Zac Effron and Vanessa Hudgens). I'm glad the morning show's hosted by Dan&Young. After the infamous FHM girls 'take-off-bra' hoo-ha, I don't really like Muttons anymore. oh well. That aside, I WANT TO GO FOR THE SUBARU IMPREZA CHALLENGE!!! Naive I may be, I always thought it was just a game of sole perseverance both mentally and physically. Until, I went to check out on the R&R at the official *webby. Rules include a 5min break ONLY every 6hrs, no food no water during the challenge, no contact with family member, yes and NO SLEEP. Kevin was telling me that you might have hallucination without sleep and the harsh weather might drain your determination as well. Not easy eh. Still, if any one's interested, tune it to our local radio station Gold 90.5FM, Class 95FM or 987FM and be a lucky caller to get yourself in the list of 1,200 participants whereby they'll pick 380 via a lucky draw to compete. Should I try my luck? =p

I realised I have been really "nua-ish" lately. I countdown to heeding home on days when there's no classes. Ya ya, I hear shouts of me being called a loner/loserish/pathetic/out of love. Whatever. First things first, hanging out requires $$$. I'm saving up for my new school term and possibly a holiday with the bunch end of the year. As for retail therapy, I haven't physically done that yet due to the "lack of motivation" to get my ass in town. ORCHARD ROAD IS BORING CAN. The stuffs I browse online are so much prettier and unique(and no, I'm not gonna max out out my clear card.) I don't spend frivolously like how I used to, and now, all I want is to get home and enjoy a simple home cooked meal+sinful TV. I spent my teenage years and the beginning of adulthood hanging out almost everyday and realized I have not been having good solid 'meme' time. Now I know what Shifu means when he said work and school is droning him so much so that he doesn't even have time for himself. Not to mention that he has not popped the girlfriend question yet to that lovely girl of his. Well, there are pros and cons la huh whether being happily single or blissfully attached. I'm not intending to compare and contraste here because either way, my personal opinion is open to controversy and I refuse another tagboard war. I would just say it's only a matter of how well you manage your time. yup.

So...despite being terribly busy, do heed home early once in a while. Trust me, to enjoy a warm shower after a hard day at work top up with a choc cake or a cup of hot tea infront of the TV or your laptop at 9pm is an ultimate indulgence. Who is duly home at 9pm now that our lives are so bloody hectic?

Because I'm home early yesterday, I had time to read the papers,cook some tangyuan and clean Peach's cage. Peach is ULTRA hyper. He worships the wheel in the cage. Yup he's rather fat and big now at times I'm afraid to pick him up just in case he bites. Nevertheless, I'm such a sweet owner(lol.) I got him this higher grade pet food which prevents pee stink. Works wonders I tell you. =)


Peach's daily indulgence.

Ok,got to get back to work now. grrr.

Have a fabulous "meme" weekend lovelies. =)

nth much

Ermm.haha. I'm leaving the mooncake party pics to tomorrow. Got physco-ed by Shifu to have dinner at The Ricetable.And hell yes, we were super duper fat and satisfied after the meal.

Just look at the amount of food! *drools*



Something I heard over dinner that nearly caused me "laughing" out my rice.

Guy : "I go indoor tanning always wear G-string one.Coz that time I went naked my balls got burnt.Wah lao than coz I dont want let my mum see so I wash myself and hang in my own room but I forgot to keep it today!"

Guy 2 : "HUH!than how? your mum saw?"

Guy : "YAH LAH! She come and ask me infront of both my sisters lor!!! DAMN PAISEH. She somemore can tell me she thought the G-string FLEW into my room coz the wind very strong.wah laoooooo"

Guy 2 : *faints laughing*


yes yes. I think I am beginning to grow out on clubbing 'cept being hyped up for the upcoming Halloween at Zouk with the babes. My ex neighbour been bugging me to go to MOS tomorrow night(only becoz he's having his hols.his uni life quite sad.mug like mad everyday.) for their monthly Sho'Down. I rejected. I don't club on work days. But, I want to wait for Theowee to come back so we can go Zouk! hahaha.

Ok time for Cucumber face mask. Good night lovelies. =)

done-ed

Today is my day. =)

//post removed.

'Nuff said. So, if anyone wants to ignite the fire in me again by saying stupid things I'd just delete.

Let's talk about happy things lah wah lao. Did anyone celebrate the mooncake festival yesterday?? I did! The bunch had a mini-celebration last friday(xinlei wished you were around!). I had my share of yummy mooncakes,cam-whoring,prata,sparkles madness,lantern burning,UNO in the dark,making alot of noise etc.

Mh said we took like 80 over pictures? lol. Obviously I'm not gonna post all. AND AND! We found a perfect place for you couples to hang out! Although the place is not fully renovated with all the barriers around.. we manage to find ourselves a nice spot by the sea/river/water. Very pretty.

I'll post up the pictures tonight.promise! =)

Good luck to Shifu for his interview later. PLEASE GET THE JOB!!! So I can bitch about how boring work is everyday and you'll get so sick and tired of me.

(he's so stress about the interview he took a snapshot of himself and asked me if his attire's ok.)


PRAYYYYY that Kevin passes his interview at bukit merah. SO WE ALL CAN HAVE LUNCH together. YAY.

OMG. So exciting to have friends work near you.

I think my fake wig caused alot of commotion on Friendster. haha. Thanks for all the comments people. Michelle was asking me to go cut my hair into that bob style. NOOOOOO. My precious hair.

I received this pathetic friendster message a few days back:

Date: Saturday, 22 September, 2007 1:27 PM
Subject: hi hi nana-zi
Message:
Greetings Mistress,
Wow You are really beautiful !!! :D
Would be honored to locked in a steel chastity belt to serve You 24/7.

slave is from singapore
willing to relocate
chinese 180cm tall
73kg
32 yrs old

i been searching for a Mistress for a very long time.
i m really service oriented slave.
i yet to serve any Mistress before cos in singapore, its really very hard to find a domineering Lady.

kinky side:
i like woman in very high heels shoes and knee high boots holding a cane.
Governess.
bondage
foot worship.

working in financials.degree in banking

msn :dereklum7@hotmail.com
yahoo messenger :hotdereksg@yahoo.com


Can someone shoot him please?

aiyo. I got loads to blog leh... but I'm quite lazy now because my fingers are freezing and I'm hungry.

later~

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My Happy Ending

The moment that I got myself prepared for finally arrived. Yup, been hearing lots of stuffs from alot of friends. A month ago, my mum was telling me about how she feels this would have ended.True enough it turned out in the way she predicted(more like everyone as well). It's just how fate played a part in separating two wrong persons and making another two fall in love. Nope, I'm not the least upset. I stopped crying since I knew it was over. But, I'm disappointed in why I let myself be open to such a vulnerability... why I chose to be in denial when I knew what it was all along. To be honest, I let go the day it was officially broken and now, it's just someone else's love story.

You're not in my happy ending.

I wish you all the best.

All the things you hide from me

All the SHIT that you do

You were all the things I thought I knew

And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything that I wanted

We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it

And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away

All this time you were pretending

So much for my happy ending

My thoughts 1

"It's because I felt warmth before, which makes me even colder now."



I'm sorry.

damnit.

OooOOooolala~

Resting my mind to build up creative juices was just an excuse. hah. I was simply too lazy to upload all the pics. But then again, pictures speak louder than words.

Cecilia's Hen Party =)

The Party Venue:


Oohtique! <------ click me!



Pink Counter.

Our lovely bride had totally no clue where her wild party is. We kept her curiousity beneath a scarf blindfolding her all the way from Raffles MRT.



Our helpless bride.

Finally,after much giggling and mild cussing during the "ardous" walk down boat quay,we arrived! Cecilia was in for a surprise-a sexy french maid costume. There was no male teaser stripper so dear Peter Parker was replaced for us to fool around with for the evening.


"Sir, may I..." *giggles*


Lingerie galore.

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Dress up time!

I chose the vixen-raunchy topped up with pink bunny ears look.


*Kiss* me baby. <3

Exotic Indian cuisine for dinner(hell yummy). We had naan, spicy tandoori, lady fingers fried in a special curry batter.. oOOoo. A light fragrant white wine complimentary from the Ooh bar to complete our meal with oOOoomPh.


The dinning area.


Chocolate fountain+marshmellows=orgasmic.


All dressed up!


I love this pretty chandelier.

More cam-whoring.


Sandy with her afro hair-do.



*ooOOOpss* I stole Peter Parker!!!



Dr Madeline aka Princess Snow White.



Sandy's new found friend! Mr cuCUMber.Very suggestive I know.


Our host dared us to rounds of 'dirty' charade and we had to guess words like crotchless panties,well hung,phone sex,foreskin,porn star,premature ejaculation,69 etc. The losing team had to succumb to forfeits which if you all may have guessed - naughty dares.


Miss Hen Night and her HUGE hairy member.



It's called The Bride's shot.

Loads of fun I tell you.And price is reasonable as well! $60/person(including dinner)plus they even threw in a $30 store credit for us to shop. The store sold unique sex toys,lingerie,karma sutra stuffs,books you and I never seen before... and the one I like the most! Penis dip in hot chocolate!(But I didn't buy la.Maybe next time.hee)


Sexy bunny at your service.*winks*


Ok,I'm off to my company's mooncake festival party. They prepared tables full of yummy finger food and mooncakes from different hotels. *cries* =(

tired.

I'm shaaggggggedddddd out.

Hen night post soon. So stay tuned to some saucy pics. yup. I'll blog when my mind regains back creativity.

Important stuff first. My deepest condolences to dear Xinlei. Babe, your grandpapa is in a safe and pretty place. We'll meet up real soon alright? *hugs*

Please don't rain tomorrow night.

I hate Kaibin coz he stays in the west and he doesn't know how to go there.

Kevin left halfway to shit in the midst of our mass chat.

And as I type thissssss...... my eyes are closing.. blah boo bahhhh...

nightty.nightalalinglongloo.

friends.

Ponderism.

I don't know what to say today. Well, not exactly. More of I've got lots of stuff on my mind and I don't know how to start. hah.

Let's start with saying HAPPY WEDNESDAY!!!

It's midweek. YAY.

3 more hours to collecting the frock.
4 more hours to eat eat eat.
2 days to lantern festival gathering with the bunch.
3 days to the wedding.
4 days to Lazy Sunday.

Fortunately, I'm only playing a minor role as one of the 'jie meis'. Imagine if it was Charlene's or Theo's wedding. ohmygawd.

Anyways,

I was telling the boys on msn last night how much I treasure their friendship. *awww* Yea and if there was an option to have your guy friends as bridesmaid as well, they are top on my list.

Well you all know, people come and go. In every chapter of your life, you meet different people and make new friends.Some friends are just a passing phase,while some stay forever. If you haven't noticed,we all have our different cliques in certain point of our lives. We have our secondary school friends who saw us grew up from a teenager to now what's become a young adult. Our JC/Poly friends who went through the teenage phase... mugging for A's, rushing projects,BGR and sorts. Not forgetting our temp job buddies during those term breaks whom we had lots of fun with. And then, some of our friends goes on to the Universities...some begins National Service and some enter the dog-eat-dog working society.

pause.

Now, think about it. How many friends have you made throughout these few chapters of your life. Many many many friends right? But, how many "survive" as your true blue friend until today? I'm talking about someone(bf/gf not included) who is willing to share your tears and joy, accept your flaws, nag when it's necessary and be there for you whenever there is a need to. My point being here is that everyone needs at least one best best friend. Because at the end of the day,when you need someone to talk to, it's not your gazallion friends from Friendster or your sassy, fun-loving lecture mates or your clubbing kakis who will be there for you. Nope, not even your partner. What if you wanna rant about him/her?

Hard it is in maintaining a relationship and same goes to keeping a friendship going. It's not just about storing their numbers in your mobile and go "Oh! I have XXX contact. We can meet up over coffee for some catching up". To me, it's more than just meeting up for a simple chat. You need spice+care+bitching+concern+retail therapy+laughters+hugs+lame jokes+profanities+nagging all together to keep a strong bond with a friend whom you think is worthy of your love.

Nevertheless,what I'm trying to say is that even though each and everyone of us move on to different chapters of our lives, I believe certain friends shouldn't be forgotten. Without the past, there wouldn't be a present you. Think of friends who made an impact in your lives for they are the ones who somehow played a part in who you are today. Cherish your current friends and go the extra mile to keep the bond. You'll never know when one of them decides to be your best friend forever.

I'm glad I kept some nice friends. =)

p/s : I'm craving for HK gary's french toast and Xin Wang's Puo Lo Bao( w/o the pineapple ). boOOoo.

friendster.

Facebook? NOT.

My Friendster profile's private because I do not wish to disclose too much of my private life online to "unknown people who may link around and get to my personal profile". Friendster tells alot about my life and so does this blog and I removed my blog link off Friendster as well.

Why like that leh? you'd ask.

Because I am seriously sick and tired of answering random questions like "eh you got new boyfriend ar?" or "are you single now?". I AM NOT A FLIRT. And these are the people whom I've not met in donkey ages(yet they are the one with the most comments) and unsurprisingly "located" under 'Others' category on my msn. Needless to say, I have since deleted them off both my private online space.

Hell no, I am not trying to act all mysterious here. I do not view profiles on anonymous mode. I like my friends to know that I popped by his/her profile and I'd leave random comments.

And, I prefer intellectual Friendster messages like this:

"So, theres a small little problem, i keep trying to add you on friendster but the system keeps saying an error has occured.. Weird.. Anyways, if you were wondering why i viewed you, (like every other human will think) i was looking for people who were interested in poetry. haha, so your pic appeared and yeah, private profile.. -_-"

I DO NOT GO AROUND ADDING PEOPLE ANNOYMOUSLY =P

Anyways, add me if you have the time aite?

Take Care
XXX


AND NOT...

The "hi.can add as fren?" or "care to exchange msn?" ( total bullshit ). Usually, these kind of online identities own profiles with COUNTLESS of pretty girls and zero comments. Sick in the head I would say. Why in the world would you want to add ONLY babes under your friend list? For "pleasure"? eeeeeeewwwwwww can.

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On a lighter note,

My reddish rashes are going away... which makes me in a good mood today. =)

Yup remember the white/pink dress I was supposed to get for the wedding? My dearest theodora flew in a pretty white Dotti frock all the way from Perth.


Her in the fitting room.

THANK YOU SO SO MUCH QIANYING~!!!


p/s: My colleagues are going around sharing their mooncakes and I am sulking at my desk.



~Countdown : 3 more days to mooncake gathering!!!

breakup

What "lies" beneath.


"So four weeks later I asked him again, and he said he still didn't know. (Clearly,he had put about as much thought into this as every other aspect of our relationship.) Well, that's an answer,right? Not caring enough to even think about it seems like an answer, doesn't it? If you wanted to be with me,it would cross your mind to think about it. If you wanted to be with me, you'd do whatever it took to make it work. If you wanted to be with me,you'd know. You'd know. For years I thought "I don't know" and "I don't know if I can" were words that meant what they said. But from the moment I knew... "I don't know" means NO! "I don't know" means I'm too cowardly to tell you the truth because I can't deal with confrontation. "I don't know" means please do the dirty work for me because I don't want to hurt your feelings even more than I already have."

-adapted from It's called a BreakUp because it's Broken

True isn't it? Sounds familiar to me.



Why do some of us choose to deny it ? is it dumb or plain stupidly in love?

goodness gracious

Chomp Chomp+Baking+Randomssss


Did I mention I love the bluetooth technology?AH HAH. =D Took me less than 5 mins to get all the pictures transferred from my phone to the lappy. yay.

Not gonna be long winded. So let the pictures speak.



My fav playground. View from Ryan's flat.




Chefs@work.




We love chompchomp.



Us Us minus Benji.

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My favourite pic of the day!



I look so greedy CAN.



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an ex sch sec friend : hi nana

me : oh hello

an ex sch sec friend : today nv go out uh?

me : later.

an ex sch sec friend : if not can date you out ma... =p (wtf is "date me out?")

me : -___-"

an ex sch sec friend : why that face? cannot date u out meh? =X ( i dunno wat's with the =X)

me : i like to give lame faces too.

an ex sch sec friend : *faints* see when you free lo. ask you out on a date =p ( ........ )



I need to redress myself. It doesn't mean that you bumped into me on the streets and you come over and I replied hi(in a friendly way) means that I might be interested to go out on a date with you. It also doesn't mean that by giving you my hp number means I think I am interested in you!!! It's only basic courtesy that we exchange contacts. I can't possible say "NO" straight in your face right? Anyway, this "ex sec sch friend" have been sms-ing me NON-STOP ever since I agreed to give him my hp number. Most of the time, I don't reply.


Being unattached does not equal to me being easy.


It takes more than just bugging me on sms/msn to ask me out on a date.

arrgghhh.

To hell with men and their simple brains.

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Of Dresses and Mascarons.


Ok let's not talk about this morning's test. =(

Skipped today's class and here am I back at home... semi-drenched and tired. I think I'm gonna go have a short siesta before I hop over to Ryan's place later(a good thing I'm just a few blocks away.super lazy to travel.)

OK!

I NEED VOTES PEOPLE!!

For the tea ceremony next week,the theme is to wear either white or pink. Well, I did search our local stores for a nice dress but they were either too expensive or too common. HAH. So, I sort "help" from online and here are the dresses I picked out of like 24674366842267 browsed pages. =D




Well, I personally like the polka dots one. Am contemplating because of the black dots(yea not sure if its allowed).
As for the pink and white one below. It's relatively simple yet pretty. Yet again, I can't make a choice btw white or pink.grrrr.





Ignore the blue dress(i love it!). I just wanna show you guys.
The one with the gold belt might make me look old.
Theo likes the design of the satin one.
And the one with the model(bottom left) is a dress that you can spot me in when I'm out to town. Sweet and simple.

Prices of all the dresses are ranging from $33 - $42.

Seriously,

I can't make up my mind.



Will you make the decision for me? lovess. =)

bah bah black sheep

This week is C-R-A-P.


Ipod Touch anyone?





CoOOoooL right? And yes I need a new ipod. My pink mini's outdated because even my sis owns a 80G ipod-vid . Reviews stated that it's more feasible to get the iphone instead.

aiyah.next year than say.

ANYWAY,

I am sprouting rashes on my thighs, having a headache, my mouth is sore,feeling nausea and my tummy aches.

Great. I went on the net to check up on the antibiotics(Alprim) the dermatologist prescribed. True enough,I think I am experiencing the side effects. Called up the clinic and was told to stop taking the medicine and monitor the rashes.

one of the sub ingredients : LACTOSE.

I can't take milk as milk. I will puke. Ironically, I enjoy MOS burger's strawberry milkshake and Teh-ping.

For the first time, I am having a drug allergy.

This is no good.

• I've got a test tomorrow morning.
• Class in the afternoon.
• A trip to Ryan's place after class to test out on our waffle machine.
• Dr. Cecilia's Hen night on Sunday evening.

Please take the rash and all the funny symptoms away.

I met Yihong(ex sec sch classmate) in school. He was telling me I could actually skip advanced dip to go straight to degree provided I impress them with my resume and working experiences. I am considering that option but I have another plan which I am unsure if it'll work. Told a few good friends about it and they were extremely supportive. Well, we shall see.

And yes, I almost screwed up my presentation last night. Was introducing the games aspect of the Sony PSP and how it's portability made it all the more pleasurable for hardcore gamers. I was really nervous my hands were shaking while trying to act professional because it was a mock press conference and obviously we were graded. Stuttered at the end when I had to say something to allow the media to shoot questions to the board of committee. The words just couldn't come out from my mouth and luckily Jason covered up for me. Nearly died la ok.

I lost my appetite for food. Everytime I start fasting I diet at the same time. Ate only sandwiches in the morning and am not hungry now.

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Warning : Ignore the following if you know nuts about hokkien.

"email conference" again with Shifu and Kevin. It's Kevin's last day today and they had lunch at Waraku.

shifu : "$20 eat until full full....ahahahaa!"
nivek: "the scallop is good!"
shifu : "jia pa ai koon liao........" (full already feel like sleeping)
nivek: "Koon lor... hahaha" (sleep lor)
shifu : "wa ai koon BUT buay sai koon..... bo loui ai zou gang....." (i want to sleep but can't sleep, no money so need to work)
me : "den mai koon. mai zou gang. tio fire ho sey lor. gong simi jiao wei pun buay sai liao. Master sibei kiang. mai siao siao" ( then dun sleep and work. if kena fire, say anything also no use. Master(boss) very power. dun play play)
shifu : "yi jiao wei gong buay ting A. simi LJ mah wu mi kia gong.... " ( he talks alot of rubbish and anything under the sun he also got comments)
nivek: "diam diam la...."

WAHAHHAHAHA. Just for laughs la.

This is how we pass our time at work. I know it's lame. And our conversations are full of singlish and hokkien and whatnots. But at times, it's this kind of corny entertainment that makes me smile when I have a rough day. I just basically "reply to all" and type "wah lao... today is a sian day lahhhhh. I got pimples ALL OVER." The next minute or so, we'll start crapping.

=)

Had a good sleep last night because I dreamt of nothing.

It's not real, it's not right

It's my day, it's my night

- Hillary Duff

it ends today. right now. this very moment.

no more.

i promise.

earthquake

Latest : Quake tremors felt in Singapore

Tremors felt in most homes in Singapore early this morning. Singapore’s Meteorological Services said the earthquake measured 7.9 on the Richter Scale. A spokesperson at the Indonesian Meteorology and Geophysics Agency said a tsunami warning had been issued.

"Everyone rushed out from their homes just like last night. I felt dizzy and I knew it was another earthquake," said Anagil, a resident at Ocean Park, East Coast Park.

Residents in most parts of the island felt the tremors. It was reported that it lasted for around 10mins. No one was hurt nor injured.

"The public should stay calm as Singapore is far away from the epicentre. But do be concerned if you see wall cracks or broken false ceiling. Stay away from swaying objects and leave the building if necessary for safety measures," said in an interview this morning on CNA with Professor Quek Ser Fong, Department of Civil Engineering - National University of Singapore.

Wednesday evening's tremors, measured an 8.5 on the Richter Scale,were the latest in a series of tremors felt in Singapore as a result of an earthquake in the region.

The worst quake was the 26 December 2004 quake off Sumatra, which triggered a series of tsunami. The quake which hit the coastlines of parts of Indonesia, Sri Lanka, Thailand, Myanmar and Malaysia,was recorded at highest 9.3-making it the second largest earthquake ever recorded on a seismograph.

Known as the Asian Tsunami, the United Nations had put the deathtoll at a devastating count of about 230,000 people. It is the ninth deadliest natural disaster by death toll in modern history.


Reporting "LIVE" on twostraws25percent.blogspot
-Diana Hoe

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Hah. Talking about being a reporter. I just wanted to try and write a report. One of my exam questions in Journalism is to test me on report writing skills. Some facts of the earthquakes were searched online. And personal experience, I felt it this morning too!!! I actually forgot my staff pass and had to make a trip back home around 8am. My sis was like "Eh! Can feel anot? I sit on the chair can feel lor!"

I have a mild vertigo syndrome so the short tremor caused dizzy spells.I still enjoy rollercoaster rides and those motion stimulators but I refuse entry to the OMNI theatre and haven't tried long flights yet( the last time was an hour trip to Penang. Got my ears popped). I remembered that Secondary school field trip to the Science Centre to watch some sci-fic show. I ended up puking in the first 10mins. eeeeeeeewwww. The dome-shaped thingy's just not for me and it's disheartening because I miss out on the IMAX movies like Dinosaurs:Giants of Pantagonia (i love dinosaurs!) and The Human Body which is currently on screen now. Arrrghhhhh.

Anyway I met a pervert this morning on the way to work and was on the verge of giving him one tight slap. Broad daylight CAN. He kept looking in my direction ( no I wasn't being sensitive). Ok I merely dressed up a little today for my group's press conference presentation tonight. Yea I had my shades on as well but I could see from behind my tinted plastic that he was making his way slowly towards me and his eyes still never left me? (and no I am not wearing a lowcut top and my legs are too fat and ugly.) That kuku guy had all the space at the bus stop but HE! stood like 50 cm away from me and tried to chat me up!! Wat the hell? He was pretending to be meddling with his phone so it wouldn't look too obvious that he was talking to me. I didn't bother lah of course.

DUH.





That aside, I only had 2 hours of sleep and had the sweetest dream ever of... I keep having sweet dreams of... But everytime I wake up, it's back to the harsh reality and it sucks totally. Sometimes I wake up with a jolt, sometimes with tears, sometimes with a smile and sometimes just wondering what did I dream about. I wish I could always remain in my la-la land. At least I know that's the only place I feel you close to me.

blah blah at 3am

Yawns


Timecheck : 3am.

I finally completed my second last essay.

Freaking tired now and I've only got 2 hours to sleep before I wake up to eat and start fasting.







Period.

blackandwhite

=)



Your future news broadcastor. nah... it's just my presentation outfit.


Oh yah, it's September which means its Yellow Ribbon month. Wear your yellow ribbon to show support for our dear ex convicts as they walk on a new lease of life.

Ok, off to school~!

breakup

Because of a break up? sighs.

I believe most of you heard of the NS man - Dave Teo Ming who AWOL from his guard duty and went around town in possession of a SAR21 which was stolen from his camp. Anyway, one of my essay's on a report about this whole Dave saga. So I went googling on his story and flipped the papers.

me(ranting to my sis) : "Wah lao this guy is stupid lah. because of a break up go and steal gun. Damn freaking dumb. eh Lydia Hoe(yes i call my sis with the surname) you got read this news?"
sis : "DUH. His ex girlfriend Crystal is my friend lor. "
me : " OMG!! ARE YOU SERIOUS! How come you never tell me about it!! Than you never ask her how she feel?? I heard she got attached to a butch that's why Dave went siao."
sis : "Aiyah you don't disturb me lah. You go and read the papers yourself."
me: ( commentless )

I feel very sorry for Dave. Yes, a break up suck. Been there, done that. He was in a relationship with Crystal for 4 years and they shared many happy moments before he enlisted( somehow I feel NS caused alot of breakups. I've heard countless cases from friends ). People do nonsensical stuffs after a failed relationship.

I remember my first heartache. I was 17 then. He love fishballs. A week after the split, I woke up at 5am in the morning to cook him a bowl of fishball soup. Honestly, up to today, I still do not know why did I do that. It's not like he'll come back to me after drinking the soup. You know.. the sincerity thingy... the "wanting him back so badly stunt". I cried while cooking and ended up not giving it to him. The soup was awfully salty and I vow never to cook fishball soup again. Another incident, I wanted to meet him in person to pass him a Vday gift(mths passed since the break up). I cabbed down to Sengkang in the wee hours of the morning at 6:30am just to "catch" him going to work. I smsed him. But he didn't reply. I waited till 9am under his block. He never turned up so I left the gift at his doorstep. A year or so after, I was told by a friend that he said he didn't like the gift and it stinks. Thinking back now, I feel soooo stupid.

Now, you will be asking me. What was the craziest thing I did after my recent break up. It would be loving him from a far distance knowing he will never know how I feel (I hear hurdes of verbal abuses hurling at me calling me as dumb as Dave). I'm learning to move on. I told myself no more crying, no more being upset over what's become memories. Why go into despair when the other party might not even be the least upset over it? There are more things in my life now than to think about what went wrong in the relationship or how badly I want him back. We are still friends though. But, I don't have the courage to go on msn and say a simple 'how are you' though there are countless truths I would want to hear from him. Maybe I will never get my closure. What's unknown will upset me I guess...we should remain like that. I miss him that's all I can say. As for what lies in the future, we'll see. Perhaps the only thing I can do right now is just to wish him well and keep him in my daily prayers.

As for Dave, I believe he was not in the right frame of mind when he did that in which I hope the judge lightens his sentence. The papers reported that he might face a jail term of max 20 years and 14 strokes of the cane. His whole life ruined just like that...because of a break up...because of someone who no longer loves you. So not worth it. Just imagine. 20 years of hell in jail. I'd probably be 42 and complaining of menopause...but for Dave on his release, it's a beginning of a new life.

I'm stuck in this essay and my office banned youtube today. Damn it.

I want to go home now. I'm freezing in the office.


*The world didn't stop for me when I was at my downest. I realised I have been so afraid of the bad that I'm missing out on the good. *

argh vexed

whatislove?




I don't like this come and go feeling. I don't like feeling ok for awhile and sucky the next day. I don't like to think about you. I don't like that everything around me reminds me of you. I don't like that I don't know anything about you. I don't like that I disappeared from your life just like that. I don't like that I keep you in my prayers every single night before I go to sleep. I don't like that your name resound in my head. I don't like to know that you forgotten me. I don't like to know that you don't miss me at all. I don't like that it still hurts so much even up to today. I don't like to know that your face is vague in my memory. I don't like to know that my heart was taken and broken and now it's gone. I don't like. I just don't like.

I don't like to know that I love you.

"Hate is a strong word... but I really really don't like you."
-plain white t's




but above all... I like to know that you are happy. the rest don't matter... does it?



"My love for you remains like this. Hidden. Unspoken of. I wish the memories will disappear so it won't taunt me. Maybe 4...5 years down the road, I might ask you.. " Did you ever think of of me?" Or maybe, we might never meet again..."

070907

Fattiest Flylayyy.

It's the taboo/lucky s.e.v.e.n today. The number scares me and Charlene despite us still loving it as our no.1 fav number. Still, happy 7th to my darling bestie. Retail therapy soon please.I'm running out of pretty clothes. =)

Beeteedoubleyou, my complexion is getting a little bit better thanks to the traditional $3 powder mask mummy got me. I would gladly take a picture of me in the mask... BUT! I might scare the living. I've got to get up early AGAIN to see the dermatologist tomorrow. Xiu Lan's coming along...she's worried about her face too. And yes, I'm super duper paranoid to the max about my face. I think my hormones got messed up due to my erratic sleeps and hectic lifestyle. To the extend that I actually grew lumps on my neck? Kevin said the lumps are caused by my overworked muscles. My face is not acne proned and there are no disgusting puz-oozing pimples... but.. aiyah I am just worried CAN~~ Now still not too old yet must pretty pretty mah. Later no one want me how?

And why is today a fatty day? Me and Xiu Lan had a satisfying "fat-free-day" lunch. There is this new cafe called Rocky Master(told my boss about the good deal.He joked about asking us to watch our weight. grrrrrrr.haha) at Tower B. So, greedy us walked all the way down to check out their mouth-watering menu. They were having an opening special promotion! Pasta+Desserts+Drink = $10!!! It's awfully sinful because I gobbled down a warm fudge brownie after a big plate of chicken teriyaki aglio olio. Talk about calories overflow and obesity.

Oh ya, I'm a happy girl too!

Firstly, I can finally declare rest day. yayyyy.

And! I went for a guilt free mini ebay-ing extravaganza. I haven't been shopping for like 2 months? But I didn't spend much lah. Only like... 2 pairs of earrings.. 1 necklace...2 tops...one bag...lipbalm...2 skirts... one belt...one make up pouch... a bottle of perfume...

I'M JUST KIDDING! You think I siao ah.

BUT! BUT! BUT!

SOMEONE BUY ME THIS PLEASE :


too cute to be true. I LOVE anything gingerbread-ish!!!

I am on the verge of bidding for it. Anyone wanna Paypal donate like $1 to me??? *pleading with watery eyes*. I need 38 handsome/chio/kind-hearted souls. Thank you oh so very much. =p
Gingy will fit nicely on my new Ikea dream bed(yes,mummy promised me A BIGGER one) with all my other soft toys. (shit I sound so 14 year-old) I'm not replacing Dumbo lah... but poor soft toy... I've hugged or should I say "compressed" him for the past 7mths and now he's almost flat?

Since it's meme day today, I'm gonna walk around Vivo later and go get the other 2 books by Mitch Albom from PageOne. Wah lao how come my life seems so lonely... revolving around me and more me? Original plan was to go for Hairspray/1408 with the boys and ah lei. But we decided to save money and plan for mooncake festival instead. SO PLEASE DON'T GO SHOPPING HOR KEVIN. GET YOUR ASS OFF THE SHOPPING MALLS!!!

p.s: I just realised I contradicted myself about the spending $$$ part and I just spoke to Kevin. He said he saw an Everlast bag and it somehow prompted my brain to think of that pretty pumps I saw at Everlast 2 weeks ago. damn.

I am a good girl lor. My saving $$$ plan is working. I'm so glad fasting month is coming 'coz I'm such a glutton. Ok, I'm starting to get really b-o-r-i-n-g like a typical ah lian entry. Back to work.

Enjoy your weekends lovelies while I "essay" away mine. <3





... " Time will tell a man's heart."

drone.

The Day before Tomorrow

In a drone mode today. I have been sleeping for less than 3hrs everyday for the past week and still have to crawl up to get my ass to go to work. My whole body is yelling for some thai massage especially my arms and wrist. My eyes, needless to say.

I think I'm putting my life in jeopardy at the rate that I am going.Super unhealthy. =(

Our group project is finally completed though I've not seen the finalized video yet. 1 proj down, 2 more essays to go. But tonight, I'm gonna slap on my mask then have a nice warm shower, fall flat on my bed and zzzzzz the night away. I am anticipating Friday because I want to heed home right after work and sit on my TV couch and get EVERYTHING off my mind besides thinking of rest rest rest and more REST. Come weekends, another gruelling two days of more essays and never-ending research.

13th of September. Dead-line.

Oh God, I need a breather.



...ussimi

050907

The 31st Day



solely me and no one else.






Because you never knew that
My love is selfless.
But you are selfish...
And you don't know what love is.

dun lie.

Wake me up when September ends.


Of lies and betrayal
And that sweet little girl
Broken unfit pieces of what was said
Denials ramming through my head

Matters no more for it's gone
Hurts not the heart that was torn
'Twas the last purple gaze
For my world became a daze

Such a simple truth
Made your soul aloof
What's next?



03/09. =) I wonder how will it be.




"Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are

As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost
Wake me up when September ends"

random blah blahs.

Busy Rainy Sunday Afternoon.


I'm dead tireddddddd can.

We manage to complete our shooting despite all the aimless cam-whoring and corny jokes. haha. My classmates are the craziest bunch. It's so sad to know this is my last module with them 'coz I'm graduating earlier. =( I shall do up a tribute soon after I get all the silly pictures from darling Tracy.



I stock up when I feel a 'lil happier.



My notes.These are just 1/3 of the whole module.



Testing out Jason's new PDA. Tracy!!!


Ok, I'm off to have a nice warm shower+grab some food+Aska Yang on cableTV.

oh yah,

HAPPY BELATED TEACHERS' DAY SHIFU!!!

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My Shifu.The Cute Boy - Kaibin.

proj

I am a procrastinator.

Slept early last night thinking I can wake up early to brainstorm on my fyp project outline. Set my trusty alarm at 10am.

Overslept.

Luckily I woke up at 11:45am. Spent an hour consolidating ideas but to no avail. grrr. But, I manage to submit it before the 1pm dateline. The only thing that nearly killed me was how to operate my scanner. I'm such a hardware idiot.

I spelt synopsis wrongly in my last entry. My friends are always laughing at how I pronounce and my inability to spell,which eventually got them bitching that I am from "Mess Comm".

Some of my classic conversations :

me: "I'm so devasted lor!" ( yup. I said dee-vas-sta-ted )
me: "Imperial restaurant la." ( I said in-pear-ril )
me: "Peach is of Syrian breed." ( I said si-ren )
me: "Their caramelized onions damn nice!" ( hah. carmalized )

Ok start laughing.


back to my essays... =(